The Disconnect

Hi Daddy,

Yesterday, DJ and I had our daily devotion using a devotional called Rhapsody of Realities. There was a line that really stuck with me: “Worship can be the key that unlocks divine responses when it seems like there’s silence from God.” After the devotion, we talked about how we were both feeling spiritually, and I shared how disconnected I’ve been feeling from You. It feels like I’m on the outside looking in, and I’ve always felt like I was on the inside before.

I try to pray and read my Bible, but it all just feels flat. Honestly, my prayer for the last year has been, “Father Lord, I want to know you and experience you in a way I’ve never experienced you before.” It feels like such a deep prayer, right? But it seems You haven’t responded; instead, it feels like you’ve distanced yourself from me. I’ve heard that when we feel distant from you, it’s usually us who’ve moved away, but right now, it feels like you’ve moved away. And I’m sad because you’re the only one I’ve ever had trusted and depended on and now it feels like I’m on my own.

After DJ and I talked, we decided to worship and pray together. When we were done, he said, “Babe, I think you should start using your words more.” I was so confused. “What do you mean, use my words more?” I asked. He explained, “You speak very well, and you write just as well. You have a great command of words use that to talk to God.”

So, this morning—actually, it’s the afternoon since I woke up after 12—I had this thought to start blogging again, but this time, the whole idea is to talk to You.

Daddy, you know how I talk a lot—get ready to be sick of me!

Love,
Your Daughter